2017 Resolutions (a/k/a My Queer Agenda)

SO! 2016 is over. Good riddance. 2017 is here now, and I’ve got plans.

If you read my previous post, you know that 2016 hit me pretty hard. But, as always, I’m trying to make the best of it. As much as I can, anyway. I’ve learned from this last year that I need to really step up my game. Really work on becoming the person I envision for the future. Try to make that future my present reality.

And so, I have come up with a list. I have lovingly dubbed it: My Queer Agenda.

It starts like this.

  1. Be More Me.
    I have a feeling I’m going to be really fucking loud this year. About my bisexuality and all that that means. I’m going to be super vocal on the internet, and not just in my daily life. I’m going to be more flamboyant, and dress in only what I feel like wearing, instead of what I feel like I ought to wear. I’ll wing my eyeliner so sharp it’ll cut men. I’ll wear bright purple lipstick and glitter and combat boots.

    I’m also going to be more out in the community. I’ve got plans to start a podcast with a friend. I want to review things more–especially from a queer standpoint. I’m going to donate more to charity–both time and money. I really feel it’s more important now than ever to do this, to not just stick together and help each other out, but also to speak up. Add my voice to the mix. I haven’t exactly been silent but… maybe I’ve been too quiet. That’s going to change, starting now.

  2. Be A Stronger Me.
    The ever present “get in shape” goal. Maybe I’ll hit it this year. I’m going to try to do at least some form of exercise everyday, even if it’s only a set of squats. My parents set up a gym in the spare bedroom–I might as well use it. I want to run a 5k (actually run, not just walk), and be able to pick up and carry one of my friends bridal style by the end of 2017. We’ll see if I can make that goal.

    But along with this, I also want to sharpen my mind and skills. I’ve decided I’m going to try for the N4s this year in Japanese. I’ve always played around with the idea of Japanese fluency, but now I’m really committed to it. It’s not just a neat thing as a hobby anyway–I actually have plans to use it for a future business.

    I also want to try my hand at ice skating. Or dance classes. Or maybe both. We’ll see. That might be a 2018 thing. 😛

  3. Side Hustle the Shit Out of Everything.
    Hoo boy. Yeah. This. So, financially, so many things are up in the air, you know? I’m working part-time at a fucking comic book shop. There’s no room for advancement, and no room for raises. And that’s if the boss doesn’t drive the store into the ground.

    Now is absolutely the time to be finding other streams of revenue.

    I’ve got a Patreon started for… basically all my stuff. My webcomic, my fanart, a serial novel I’ll be doing chapter-by-chapter. I’ll be posting about my progress with that. I’ve got Queen’s Rogues already started, and I want to keep that going. See if I can’t get those pages up faster and more consistently.

    As always, I’m going to write. I need to finish and finalize at least one manuscript, if not two. Two would be great, but I’ll settle for one.

    I’m also looking into building up inventory for Redbubble or Society6. I want to do doujinshi for print and sale. I’ve got an ebay account started for selling stuff on the side–we’ll see how that goes. (I actually just made my first sale there yesterday! :D)

    I also want to look into self-pubbing stuff on Amazon.

    And, if that didn’t already sound like a lot, I’ve got plans on finally putting together a video game. I use RPG Maker, and I’m getting… better at it. Let’s just leave it at that.

    My goal for 2017 is to get most, if not all, of those things up and generating money. So if something happens to the store job, I won’t be so shit out of luck. Or hell, even if nothing happens to the store, I’ll have extra money I can stash away. Maybe finally start planning for getting a place of my own.

And that’s it. My Queer Agenda. Be louder, be stronger, make more money. It’s a lot, but achievable. I think. (I hope.) I really can’t afford to do anything less.

– Eris


2016 Can Suck It

There’s a very nice, polite review of the year for myself and the writing group I’m a part of (affectionately nick-named the Ferrets!) over here.

But I wanted to add in my own two cents.

This year… really kind of sucked. Lots of terrible things happened. Lots of people died. Personal idols, role models, people I admired. Family of friends died. Friends of friends.

Carrie fucking Fisher.

It’s been a tough year for funerals.

This election took a lot out of me. I followed the whole thing pretty closely–the whole campaigning year. And the results were personally devastating to me. To think that there are enough people in America to vote for a man who doesn’t consider me human; to think that there are enough people in America who actively claim to value their pocketbooks over human lives… it kicked me in the ribs. Several times.

I work for a guy who has told me to my face that he thinks his business and potential tax breaks are more important than my life. More important than me having access to the basic civil rights that he has–has in fact, told me, to my face, that “majority rules. It sucks, but all you minorities will just have to learn how to deal with it”; as if that’s supposed to make me feel better about being devalued as a human being. By my own boss. (And really, his comment? Doesn’t take into account that marginalized people–myself included–have been dealing with it. For years and years and years. We had the opportunity to maybe make things a bit better for ourselves and everyone else to boot, and a bunch of selfish, narrow-minded assholes took that away.)

To say it’s been rough has been… difficult.

But I’ve been preserving. Even managed to make some headway with my bigoted boss. (At least he’s not actively gloating anymore.) I had to move back in with my parents but it’s been working out pretty well. I’ve been able to work on my art instead of scrambling for money to get food or pay my rent. I started up a webcomic (Queen’s Rogues!), drew a whole bunch of things, wrote a whole bunch of things, played some awesome video games (like Stardew Valley), and spent time with some truly awesome people.

2016 has sharpened my edges greatly. I’m just trying to make sure those edges don’t cut the people I care about–or myself. I can’t really say I have hope for the upcoming New Year, but I do have a grisly determination. To protect myself and my friends. To do everything I possibly can to make sure that people I care about have futures. To make art.

2016 has been fucking stinking cesspit of a year. I’m glad to see the end of it.

Quarterly Update 2015 (Spring)

Back in January I had a list of goals I wanted to accomplish. Here’s where I’m at right now.

1) Read 13 books. I have finished Gone Girl, Cocaine Blues, Transylvanian Fairy Tales, and The Raven Boys. (9 more to go!) I’m currently reading The Dream Thieves. 🙂

2) Clean my house. Still a trash heap. It may actually be worse than it was at the beginning of the year. Oi.

3) Paint six things. I have… 3 painting started and nothing finished yet. >< But I have 3 started! I should probably go ahead and make an effort to at least finish one of them. (I did, however, get a tentative quote on how much it would be to get them professionally photographed so I can upload the images to some kind of art sale site, like Society6.)

4) Draw the Rival Neighbors comic. I haven’t started drawing it, but I’m almost done editing the script. It needed some major revisions, but I think I’m getting the flow of it where I want it. 🙂

5) Write/Finish two long projects. I have…. done barely anything to this. Oi.

6) Write/Finish/Post seven shorter projects. OKAY. So I’ve finished 2 short things: Operation Smite Scott McCall’s Stupid Haters and FAILBOAT HOOKER STILES. I am working on another thing for the BiteTime contest right now, which is due on May 25 (personal goal: first draft done by April 20). I’m behind, but not like, impossibly behind on my writing schedule. Oh, and I have ideas/plot notes for 2 more shorts that I’m hoping to finish up mid-June.

7) Drink more water. I was doing really really well for the first couple of months, then these last two weeks I’ve been terrible. And I feel terrible for it. I’m trying to be better. ><

8) Cook more. I am getting a hell of a lot better at this. I am down to about going out once a week. I am most pleased with this. 🙂

9) Exercise more. And I’ve been doing great at this one! I am going to the gym twice a week pretty easily. I’m trying to work in a third session a week.

10) Pay off large credit card. Ugh, so it turns out that yes, I owe this large bill, but no, it is no longer an active credit card. >< It’s basically just a bill. They did some kind of restructuring earlier this year and because my credit score was below where it ought to have been, they canceled my account. And now I just owe them money. >< So I’m basically working off this large bill with no expectation of being able to use it in the future as a credit card. Which is disheartening. (And, as an update, I am under $2300 left to pay, which doesn’t seem like much, sure. But that’s pretty huge for me. Especially for someone who doesn’t like owing $60 to anyone.)

Holy Crap, It’s 2015

Well, I took a longer break than anticipated. Six months may have gone by without a peep from me, but I was able to get quite a few things done. I have successfully completed NaNoWriMo this November, wrote several new stories which I have posted on AO3, and finished a script for a fan comic. Also the normal (and some days quite abnormal) amount of regular work and other such daily dreck to keep myself living under a roof with actual food.

But it’s 2015 now, and it’s time to make some goals for myself.

1) Read more books. Specifically at least 13 books. This last year I have read reams and reams of fanfiction, but not original works. And that really needs to change. (Not that there’s anything wrong with fanfiction, and I still highly encourage it as a practice and an art form.) I need to read more widely–nonfiction, literary works, poetry–and stop reading obsessively in my comfort zone. First up on the list is the thriller Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. I’ve already started reading it, and it’s good in ways I wasn’t really expecting. I am planning on posting a review of it when I’m finished.

2) Clean my house. My house is a mess. The less said about this, the better. Moving on…

3) Paint six things. Canvases, actually. I got back into painting this late summer/fall, and got an easel for Christmas. I’m really enjoying it, and learning/relearning things is supposed to be good for me, or something. It certainly has been eye-opening for my own particular artistic style. When I finish a few pieces, I will showcase them here. 🙂

4) Draw the Rival Neighbors comic. Remember that script I said I finished? This is it. It’s a book-length graphic novel. I’d really, really like to get the thing finished before 2016. Since the script is finished, I need to cement the character designs and the “set” locations, then start paneling. A fellow fan and fast internet friend has already volunteered to ink the thing for me, as I am terrible at inking and he is actually quite, quite good at it. 🙂 Hopefully that means that the comic will be done and ready to post faster. Huzzah!

5) Write/Finish two long projects. Right now, by “projects” I mean novels–but that is subject to change. I am very much looking forward to rewriting Cloudy with a Chance of Satan and editing Monsters and Ghosts. Maybe by the end of the year I will have two manuscripts I can start sending to people to beta-read. 😀 I am very excited about these prospects.

6) Write/Finish/Post seven shorter projects. I’ve got a To-Write List approximately 50 stories deep, and I really, really need to mark some of them off. Hopefully by the time I weed out the unviable ideas, I will have at least seven completed stories of which to post/query/what-have-you. (I’m sure I won’t get through all my list this year, but I’m hoping to make a large dent in it. However, I know that some stories are just not going to take shape or aren’t quite ready to be written yet, so that’s why I’m only holding myself to seven finished ones.)

7) Drink more water. I’m pretty sure I can achieve this one. I just need to stay on it and stop thinking “I’ll get a glass of water when I am done with [x]” and actually get up when I realize that I am thirsty. 🙂

8) Cook more. Mostly because I want to stop spending so much money on take out.

9) Exercise more. Ah, the ever present “Exercise more” or “Lose weight” goal of every person’s New Year Resolutions list. We’ll see if I can manage this.

10) Pay off large credit card. 😛 Kind of personal, I know, but it’s a goal of mine. I’m working it down by bits and chunks.

Well, that’s it for me. How is your 2015 so far? Got any goals you’d like to share?